I’ve Never Wanted to Run A Marathon More in My Life
Posted on April 16, 2013
“What we think, we become.”
Over the past 24 hours, Tanya and I talked about what we could write about to reflect on yesterday’s horrific events in Boston. I don’t know that there’s a “right” thing to talk about and I’m not quite sure what will follow.
Events like these tend to bring communities together, and we’re getting to experience this on a much too frequent basis nowadays. Communities are defined by special bonds, and when someone attempts to break that bond or harm those inside that we trust, admire and hold dear, we’re forced to ask questions. One question I heard (and asked myself) more times than I can count yesterday was “why?”
Why the Boston Marathon? Why those people? Why did this have to happen? And so on..
Those answers, I’m sure, we’ll come to know in the coming days. For myself, and many others, I still don’t know how to process what happened. I wasn’t affected directly or even indirectly. So what now? Do I just wait until the questions and thoughts fade away? I could chip in financially, support emotionally, and generally just find more love in my heart.
I want something more than that though, and there’s this burning desire to just run. I’ve never wanted to run a marathon more in my life than I do right now.
I don’t know what else to do. I think these events make us all feel exposed. Vulnerable. It’s uncomfortable. We live in the United States of America, we shouldn’t be scared to walk outside, right? We shouldn’t fear for our lives at movie theaters, at work, school or when we’re cheering on our friends and family at races.
Following the quote at the beginning of the post, I don’t want to think anymore. I want to do. The only appropriate action I can take is to run a marathon. Perhaps it’s some inner desire to reach a deeper connection to the running community, and to better understand what the spectators and runners were feeling at Boston. Maybe it’s out of anger and frustration and this is my personal method of vengeance for those in Boston. Maybe it’s out of fear, or hope, or pain.
Whatever it is, I’m now a marathoner in training.I've Never Wanted to Run A Marathon More in My Life by Zack Sylvan